Was feeling pissed, agitated, upset the entire day.
Gave it a careful thought during dinner.
Took a walk in the park all alone
After which, I stopped by the pavillion to write my letter.
I guess that this was the best way
My 3rd letter to mommy and daddy.
First was confirmation camp
Second was graduation(sji)
Came home at almost 12
followed by long talk with mommy and daddy
Parents really do know their children at the back of their hands no matter how old the child has grown
Am delighted and thank god for my parents
Im no longer upset now
Hope to have good foresight and strong vision like daddy and marry a capable and virtuous wife like mummy
Then again, I shudder when I think about the future which somehow seems like the night sky which is so open to possibilities, where silver linings can be found, where traps are hidden, where my adversaries are unknown.
Will I be successful in bringing up a closely-knitted family
Will I have enough power to give my family a comfortable life
Will I even find She who is worthy of my love
perhaps..who knows...I might just get killed by a stray bullet during national service.
Life isn't meaningless, but Life is so unpredictable...
It is one day to the New year. Much has happened in 2008.
The FUEL camp went deep down and brought out much from me to re-ponder about my life issues again. Was tired throughout the camp and kept sleeping. Really thank the people who planned it. The bonding day yesterday was also great. Got to know some people better and the night talk cock session was YAY! Hope that we have more of such stuff in the future.
Class gathering was so enjoyable. Felt really emo writing letters to the girls the night before. Finished at about 3am...but because I was still very "thought-full", only slept at about 4...only to realise that I had 3 more to go in the morn. Being with the PDA as usual was fun, and of course wet! Lynette was the host and she was concerned about us getting sick, so nice of her to bring out towels and errhem....disposable underwears....
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Making a new step
could mean a hard slap
might get a gentle pat
that i do not know
and i have to go slow
Perhaps a century or less
that's how long my life gets
how can i afford to go slow
falling from the sky
the one who made the angels cry
oh my
He's not gonna be mine
the sleigh arrives
i make a dive
i search frantically
but it isn't there
i wonder where
People talking without listening
listening without thinking
i can stop crying
only when the soul frying stops
You gave me a smile
which went miles into my heart
which shattered my smile
which glued my lips
and i just didn't know what to do
cause I knew
I will never be with you
could mean a hard slap
might get a gentle pat
that i do not know
and i have to go slow
Perhaps a century or less
that's how long my life gets
how can i afford to go slow
falling from the sky
the one who made the angels cry
oh my
He's not gonna be mine
the sleigh arrives
i make a dive
i search frantically
but it isn't there
i wonder where
People talking without listening
listening without thinking
i can stop crying
only when the soul frying stops
You gave me a smile
which went miles into my heart
which shattered my smile
which glued my lips
and i just didn't know what to do
cause I knew
I will never be with you
Friday, December 12, 2008
Returned from Japan yesterday.
The temperature was alright, manageable by my "armour" except on the second day when it was raining in Kyoto.
The quality food was something that I really enjoyed during my trip. The dinner in the hotel room on Tuesday really rocked! Like my dad, I was rather disppointed in the scenery since the castles, temples, blah, blah(cause there was nothing else) were just items in the potrait of a massive concrete jungle in the city of osaka. The chilly rain on the second day totally spoilt our visit to the most scenic place(countryside of Kyoto).
I am marvelled at the politeness of the Japanese and their excellent standard of service that is rare in a country like Singapore. There was even an occasion where a Japanese schoolgirl walked us to our designated platform at the train station and we were never rejected when asking for directions though the Japanese had trouble understanding english.
There was this night that I couldn't sleep after watching CNN news about the cholera epidemic in Africa and the terror attack in Mumbai. On my side of the universe, hotel slippers are thrown away every day in a 5 star hotel that is equipped with automatic taps and toilet bowl "gameboys", with people whose tummies are full of tender sashimi, succulent beef, heavenly snow crab...and people who enjoy their own hentais freely as their guns are wrapped with a finely manufactured rubber "silencer"...On the other god-forsaken side of the globe, natural slippers are found on the soles of many who trudge on the rough dirt, people stick their tongues out to receive the meagre amounts of clean water from the automatic sky taps since one of the other alternatives is the yellowish one well kept in their bladders, tummies are full of growls and perhaps roars on empty nights, and those who use their guns will live to find a forest of cauliflowers in their barrels.
Millions weep at the oxymoronic term "religious war" uttered by Osama and his vast network of warped-minded buddies who continue to insult the muslim world via their immature actions. Equality is and had always been a mission impossible in the various meritocratic societies that we thrive in. This has been a main goal of such extremist groups. Yet, have they ever pondered how would the September 11 attacks in the heart of the States, the London bombings, Mumbai massacre ever aid in achieving this goal other than sparking a wave of desolation, animosity, and of course... vengeance? These fools continue to destroy their chances of attracting foreign investments without an assurance of a stable social climate. Tourism industry in Iraq has also been virtually obliterated since the sep11 bombings. I find it difficult to see any rationale in striking fear and attempts to cripple the economies of strong nations since it would clearly not place them in a better position for international wealth distribution and the drive towards equity.
A child wails...and he demands for a packet of sweets placed by his parents on a high shelf out of his reach. He cries, he swears, he jumps, he shouts, and he gets 1 sweet. The child tries a second time. He cries, he swears, he jumps, he shouts, his parents do not give in. The child picks up a kitchen knife and stabs them both...
Has he lost something greater?...
Do you think he will ever get another sweet?...
and his diapers read:"religious war"
so much has to be done...
On a random note, went out with S23 to East coast for cycling today. Ass hurts still.
I guess what kaizhong and the PDA said was kinda true...I realised that it's about me, though not entirely just me....
They played pool after lunch. Being not very interested, I resorted to reading at books galore and scouting for guitar accessories where I met Marcus Wong and the 433 sji peeps. Yi Hui is super pro at pool. And lynette reminds me of myself when i just started learning how to play....the weird bridges and the awkward stick shots. very cute.
Had a fufilling game of dota with Artons and zac on my team. First time using PL against non-AI players and it went very well with double butterflies, together with Sny against the other team. Almost thought that we would have lost given zac's multiple deaths. I shouldn't have played lan. The bus was slow, the mrt was slow and I was late for fuel. But still, it is my own irresponsibility to put the blame on. Delighted to see many. And anthony was really crazy, seriously crazy....but that's being himself....and as if im not....
that's it for now... I need to sleep
The temperature was alright, manageable by my "armour" except on the second day when it was raining in Kyoto.
The quality food was something that I really enjoyed during my trip. The dinner in the hotel room on Tuesday really rocked! Like my dad, I was rather disppointed in the scenery since the castles, temples, blah, blah(cause there was nothing else) were just items in the potrait of a massive concrete jungle in the city of osaka. The chilly rain on the second day totally spoilt our visit to the most scenic place(countryside of Kyoto).
I am marvelled at the politeness of the Japanese and their excellent standard of service that is rare in a country like Singapore. There was even an occasion where a Japanese schoolgirl walked us to our designated platform at the train station and we were never rejected when asking for directions though the Japanese had trouble understanding english.
There was this night that I couldn't sleep after watching CNN news about the cholera epidemic in Africa and the terror attack in Mumbai. On my side of the universe, hotel slippers are thrown away every day in a 5 star hotel that is equipped with automatic taps and toilet bowl "gameboys", with people whose tummies are full of tender sashimi, succulent beef, heavenly snow crab...and people who enjoy their own hentais freely as their guns are wrapped with a finely manufactured rubber "silencer"...On the other god-forsaken side of the globe, natural slippers are found on the soles of many who trudge on the rough dirt, people stick their tongues out to receive the meagre amounts of clean water from the automatic sky taps since one of the other alternatives is the yellowish one well kept in their bladders, tummies are full of growls and perhaps roars on empty nights, and those who use their guns will live to find a forest of cauliflowers in their barrels.
Millions weep at the oxymoronic term "religious war" uttered by Osama and his vast network of warped-minded buddies who continue to insult the muslim world via their immature actions. Equality is and had always been a mission impossible in the various meritocratic societies that we thrive in. This has been a main goal of such extremist groups. Yet, have they ever pondered how would the September 11 attacks in the heart of the States, the London bombings, Mumbai massacre ever aid in achieving this goal other than sparking a wave of desolation, animosity, and of course... vengeance? These fools continue to destroy their chances of attracting foreign investments without an assurance of a stable social climate. Tourism industry in Iraq has also been virtually obliterated since the sep11 bombings. I find it difficult to see any rationale in striking fear and attempts to cripple the economies of strong nations since it would clearly not place them in a better position for international wealth distribution and the drive towards equity.
A child wails...and he demands for a packet of sweets placed by his parents on a high shelf out of his reach. He cries, he swears, he jumps, he shouts, and he gets 1 sweet. The child tries a second time. He cries, he swears, he jumps, he shouts, his parents do not give in. The child picks up a kitchen knife and stabs them both...
Has he lost something greater?...
Do you think he will ever get another sweet?...
and his diapers read:"religious war"
so much has to be done...
On a random note, went out with S23 to East coast for cycling today. Ass hurts still.
I guess what kaizhong and the PDA said was kinda true...I realised that it's about me, though not entirely just me....
They played pool after lunch. Being not very interested, I resorted to reading at books galore and scouting for guitar accessories where I met Marcus Wong and the 433 sji peeps. Yi Hui is super pro at pool. And lynette reminds me of myself when i just started learning how to play....the weird bridges and the awkward stick shots. very cute.
Had a fufilling game of dota with Artons and zac on my team. First time using PL against non-AI players and it went very well with double butterflies, together with Sny against the other team. Almost thought that we would have lost given zac's multiple deaths. I shouldn't have played lan. The bus was slow, the mrt was slow and I was late for fuel. But still, it is my own irresponsibility to put the blame on. Delighted to see many. And anthony was really crazy, seriously crazy....but that's being himself....and as if im not....
that's it for now... I need to sleep
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Grad night was wonderful.
Everyone looked so different. Maybe not...the guys looked more or less the same, only difference was the hair. The girls were...hmm, looked totally like strangers. The njc uniform had suppressed the pheonixes in every one of them. I was like..omg! do I even know these people?!?!
The pda dressed normally, the usual formal attire, but we brought swords and shields like a bunch of fools and everyone was like looking at us in bewilderment at the beginning. Yeah, We were the grad knights!!! Forgot to bring my big sunglasses, it was like flash here , then...flash there every second or two. Very bad for eyesight! Didnt take photos with some people though...hope that there will be a chance next time...
I wanna thank the class girls for the letters, and the class t-shirt too. They were really creative and nice. Luv ya lots:
JamieAmySuyiLynetteWanchingWendyYihuiVanessaMarissaShalom
Kinda regret not mixing much with you girls in these 2 years. But yup! the S23 flame will always burn in our hearts. woah! since when was I the "love detector"?!
So we had a hotel room to squeeze in. We walked at esplanade, clarke quay till about 4 before going back to the hotel to "sleep". Even though the rest could sleep, I couldnt. I just stared into the black sky at the balcony, gazing at the city lights, and wondering if the people(my classmates) in the room behind me would ever get a chance to be with one another again...
And im sorry for emoing during the post-prom stuff having been hyper during the dinner. Lots of stuff on my mind these couple of dayz. Hope to...but cant stay smiling and making noise 24 hours haaha. Maybe only kaizhong can...
Not in the mood to post the prom photos here or on facebook given my sluggish comp. And my mailbox is flooded with "*** has tagged you in a photo!".
I hate nj but i love the njcians!...my friends at least.
Enjoyed the two years in nj despite the dreadful academic performance(will know in 3months time of the final result) and the fall in self-esteem(recovered but might be falling again). So many people that I will be missing....
wont be talking about these great friends i made in nj here as it would be too long and i dun wanna miss anyone out. Who ever said that muggers cant be friends??!!!!
Appreciated the PDA core members for cheering me up whenever I was emotified during these 2 years and the support that we gave one another. The things that the 8 of us had in common, our lunch sharing(talk-cock) sessions, the brotherly guys-school spirit that we shared, and the way we had turned the school upside down.....I will never forget them. And for the non-pda classmates...thanks for enduring our ever-so-frequent disruption of lessons, and wreaking havoc with us at other times too.
Im sure gonna keep my grad knight sword and shield
Sorry bert, joel, horse...erm and i dont know who else for being a wet blanket today at the last minute despite promising you guys yesterday. Haha, not in the mood xia, sure get owned at dota.
Everyone looked so different. Maybe not...the guys looked more or less the same, only difference was the hair. The girls were...hmm, looked totally like strangers. The njc uniform had suppressed the pheonixes in every one of them. I was like..omg! do I even know these people?!?!
The pda dressed normally, the usual formal attire, but we brought swords and shields like a bunch of fools and everyone was like looking at us in bewilderment at the beginning. Yeah, We were the grad knights!!! Forgot to bring my big sunglasses, it was like flash here , then...flash there every second or two. Very bad for eyesight! Didnt take photos with some people though...hope that there will be a chance next time...
I wanna thank the class girls for the letters, and the class t-shirt too. They were really creative and nice. Luv ya lots:
JamieAmySuyiLynetteWanchingWendyYihuiVanessaMarissaShalom
Kinda regret not mixing much with you girls in these 2 years. But yup! the S23 flame will always burn in our hearts. woah! since when was I the "love detector"?!
So we had a hotel room to squeeze in. We walked at esplanade, clarke quay till about 4 before going back to the hotel to "sleep". Even though the rest could sleep, I couldnt. I just stared into the black sky at the balcony, gazing at the city lights, and wondering if the people(my classmates) in the room behind me would ever get a chance to be with one another again...
And im sorry for emoing during the post-prom stuff having been hyper during the dinner. Lots of stuff on my mind these couple of dayz. Hope to...but cant stay smiling and making noise 24 hours haaha. Maybe only kaizhong can...
Not in the mood to post the prom photos here or on facebook given my sluggish comp. And my mailbox is flooded with "*** has tagged you in a photo!".
I hate nj but i love the njcians!...my friends at least.
Enjoyed the two years in nj despite the dreadful academic performance(will know in 3months time of the final result) and the fall in self-esteem(recovered but might be falling again). So many people that I will be missing....
wont be talking about these great friends i made in nj here as it would be too long and i dun wanna miss anyone out. Who ever said that muggers cant be friends??!!!!
Appreciated the PDA core members for cheering me up whenever I was emotified during these 2 years and the support that we gave one another. The things that the 8 of us had in common, our lunch sharing(talk-cock) sessions, the brotherly guys-school spirit that we shared, and the way we had turned the school upside down.....I will never forget them. And for the non-pda classmates...thanks for enduring our ever-so-frequent disruption of lessons, and wreaking havoc with us at other times too.
Im sure gonna keep my grad knight sword and shield
Sorry bert, joel, horse...erm and i dont know who else for being a wet blanket today at the last minute despite promising you guys yesterday. Haha, not in the mood xia, sure get owned at dota.
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