Just came back from interact camp...super tired. Hadn't really slept well last night, played cards till past 3am. Woke up at 6+ and got down to the pull-up bars area to do some exercise. Yeah, and water games were fun this morning.

Thought of coming back and CHIONG!!! my homework after lunch, but told myself later that I would play guitar for 15minutes before studying. Instead, I went to sleep immediately after playing guitar for less than 5minutes. Hmmm, I will be out tonight, and tomorrow will be another busy day....where can I find the time to read up on the parts im lagging behind.......????? Haiz....

I was disappointed initially when I heard the news...I never expected that it would actually happen...

I had put in my 110% of effort last year to train a Secondary2 team from scratch for the competition then. Usually, only 2 teams will be sent by sji-sjab to participate in the zone competition, the secondary4s for the Advanced category and the Secondary3s for the Basic Category. I proposed to the officers that the Secondary2 team be formed early so that they could participate in the march competition last year in the same category as their Sec3 seniors. It wasn't important that they won, what I wanted was for the team to be experienced before they handle their competition in Secondary 3. They disagreed at first, thinking that it was absurd, but on the promise that the training of the crucial teams would not be compromised, they eventually allowed. Even so, it was impossible to train a team in merely 2months since every team in sji-sjab history had at least 1year training before their first competition. Nevertheless, I tried my best as their trainer...and the Secondary 2 team(cancer) tried their best too. And they managed to attain the 2nd runner-up at the competition, having to compete against the Secondary3s of SJI and that of other schools in the zone. It was quite good results to me since I had expected them to get last place......The main objective was to allow them to have an insight to competitions so that their championship in the zone competition in 2007 would be a certainty.

Ok, this year......But before getting to the bad news...hmmm, got to compliment team scorpio(Sec4s) for winning the championship for the 3rd consecutive time at zone comp, though not very sure if they had attained a clean sweep. Their hard work and utmost effort had indeed paid off. However team cancer had only attained 2nd runner-up....and there were only 2 other schls competing in that category this year.....so....... they were the last place.........

3rd position with 2 mths exp.......3rd position with 12mths exp.....wth happened in the 10 months?? Its quite bad.....really...its the first time after so long that SJI had not won the championship at both categories. This meant that team cancer would not represent the zone at the national competition......hmm, it is a drop to sji's winning streak and sji's representation of the zone at the national competition....Haiz...................maybe I should go back and help team scorpio to attain victory at national competition.....maybe.......but I have already passed out and graduated, should I still be concerned with things going on there?

Anyway, squad cancer, I wish you guys all the best on your road to ncoship...Don't be put down by this defeat. Instead, work hard in other areas and show the fighting spirit of a true lasallian.

FUEL camp just ended. Quite a fun camp though the schedule was not followed due to the breaks that were given. I had expected more to turn up for the camp actually, but 20+ people was a comfortable amount. A quick overview of the camp:

Saturday:

Reached church at about 8am, had to take attendance and collect money. Though the program was supposed to start at 9.00, it started proper almost close to 11. There was mini P&W session, and talk by Jarvis about himself...then had lunch. After which there was a session on "accepting oneself" and a short activity. Then it was nap time!!! , followed by a session where we were supposed to share our individual perception of God. Had a bit of soccer and cards before dinner. At night, there was the exposure of the blessed sacrament, and 3hours long adoration, where I coughed, coughed, and coughed. Then had supper and a long night before I finally went to sleep. Had such a bad cough that I could hardly even say a word in my dreams...haha

Sunday:

Started with mass in the wee hours. Then had breakfast where we were supposed to read the bible and do some sharing...but no one actually did it...neither did I... We just talked about everything other than the bible and ate. There was a long session about the gifts of God...then followed by nap time again!!! We had lunch in the auditorium, followed by a short reflection to decide the future of FUEL...

Monday:

Ok, the camp ended on Sunday....but there was a soccer match against the Con4s. Didn't really play well because it was field soccer which needed more strategy and skills than street soccer that I usually played. Stamina was also very bad due to the flu. Hmm, looks like I got to play more soccer this holiday....;) anyway, the score was 5:3 and FUEL won......haha...of course lah!

Better start on my homework today because there will be no other free time for the rest of this week. Also Got to catch up on some sleep too before I get my new guitar tomorrw. yay!

Prayer...

The listening ear is always there
Whatever I say is not judged
I do not have to phrase my thoughts in a proper sequence
I can speak my inner most thoughts
The listener will never tell my secrets to anyone
I can go on for hours, and the listener will not fall asleep
I can still do it even though I have a sore throat
I do not have to use the phone or msn....
I believe that my listener can do everything & anything to help me
my listener genuinely wants to help me

Prayer...

Im not sure if the listener is even there........because
a direct answer is never given to my queries
advice is never given
my listener helps me.......however, HE does so in a way that he wishes.....and not the way that I wish...
My listener is invisible
My listener's presence is only felt at certain times.......



Some people pray every night to thank God for keeping them alive through the day.....
Some people pray every morning to ask God to bless them for the rest of the day.....
Some people pray every noon to thank God for the food they are about to receive.....
Some people pray every now and every then to praise God for his wonderful creations.....
Some people pray every moment they feel God's presence to adore him for the love He had given us.....

However.....some people do not pray until they meet problems they cannot solve....
Passengers on the Titanic prayed when the ship was sinking, Passengers on the plane prayed when the plane approached the Twin Towers.....NS men pray when they come into contact with evil spirits during their BMT(basic military training)......


As such, prayer is used when one is no longer in control of their predicament, prayer becomes a human reaction when things get out of hand, and when everything is hopeless....Prayer becomes a last minute resort......a last minute weapon.....becomes something that is never in mind until everything is hopeless............


Is that what prayer only means?

FOC

Had FUEL council meeting today....FUEL camp is just next week!!! The problem now is that I got something on 10th march too....but most probably will chose to go for FUEL camp. I mean how often is there a camp for FUEL?

Was exceptionally hungry today, so got a mushroom and cheese prata and a chicken martubab, thinking that it would cost like $5 odd....And after eating, when we looked at the price written on the paper, one of us spent $9...and Daryl Naidu was like saying ..."definitely him"....and yeah I kind of knew it was me..I ate the most.I was so frightened as I didn't have enough money, maybe need to help them to wash the toilet..haha. Instead, it was..$7.50....oh my!!! $3.50 for prata and $4 for martubab.......and the price for the martubab alone could have bought 2 McChicken burgers......no drinks for lunch somemore.....

Before FUEL meeting, had guitar lesson to improve my skills...yeah....Eugene was kind of shocked that I wanted to learn Californication... but yeah....its an easy song, and a nice one...


Joke of the day:

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head. She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?" Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white." The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said..............................................................................................., "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are > >>>white?"

Bloody Friday

Just came home from school....was delayed by the rain till like 5+

I was very tired this morning....due to sleeping late last night...but had to be awoken from my stupor with the news of the same stupid thing again. Really wonder if these people live to deliver...or live to........whatever...no point getting myself pissed again.

When people feel down mentally, they hurt themself physically so that all their emotions will be removed by the pain. Two of these methods include lacerating oneself and slashing of wrists...etc. Maths lecture was dead boring, so with the help of Jason, I used a pen-knife and........................it was kind of ticklish, haha and the blood-red colour was so nice. So I entered maths lecture with perfect condition and I exited the LT with a "bleeding" arm and "slashed" wrist...It was so cool, and looked so real. I had friends asking me if I was alright and telling me to get treatment. When the red ink was so diluted in the glue that it became orange, Marvin even told me:" You should leave the wound open and exposed to air, don't put medicine yet". He was thinking that the orange liquid was medicine...haha.

During lunch break, I was feeling kind of crappy, and had the burning desire to play a trick. So, yeah I became a matchmaker........or in other words.....a jackass...Seems like my conning power has returned.....muahahaha. Being an evil cupid arrow is much more fun than playing frisbee or.......stoning like I had been doing in the past week.

Then before PE, we had nothing much to do....so we just listened to some funny music which sounded like African and Zachary was singing in his distorted old-man voice. We had sort of a mass dance session, irony is that the only one dancing was me, while the rest sat back and laughed. I was dancing "public affair", but I couldn't remember most of my steps...so just danced the screwed up KJC way..haha.....and nicholas goh joined in as my partner.

PE was cancelled due to the heavy rain. there was one particular lightning strike which caused a booming thunder....whoa, my balls almost died lah....haha. Rain was so heavy that we will still get wet even if we used the sheltered path to the bus-stop....so we sat as a class in the canteen and talked crap...

Majority voted that Yi-Hui indeed looked like "evil-twin"....only the crescent girls didn't (so definitely biased)....yeah, Yi Hui, go acknowledge your long-lost sister!!!

Vanessa, haiya....don't try to "squirt" me....naughty girl, after looking at.....haha, jk

After that, we were telling jokes....and I somehow got my lameness back again...haha...and Lynette was so slow....so slow.....please lah, stop training your legs, allow them to be weak...so that you can be LAME too....

Oh no, my legs are unable to move suddenly...wiggy wobbly legs...lamed...

When i was about to go home, it was like shit!!! the ink on my wrists could not be washed off.....if my mom saw it.....haha someone's gonna get hurt.....

Hmm, theres fuel council meeting tomorrow. Should I go for it, or should I go chill out with my SJI friends, or maybe.....go "fishing"?

As what Kaizong said....I should come up with one lame joke per day...and one special one per week. Then can make a book to sell and raise funds for the class....hmmm the little !YELLOW! book, that could even outbeat the little red book....one free wheelchair with each book purchased.....in case you get too lame...and cant walk...

To that special girl....you would see me smile if I see you smile...haha